~ Lost to the battle... ~ 4:19:00 pm

If I were ever to make a bet with my friends, they would definitely lose... Many thought that I was a strong girl, that I could withstand any pressure, any stress level... But yet, I've finally succumbed to my emotions today... And with the extra stress level ++, it just made it worse...

Apparently, I was left to work on my own again today since my junior had to send patients for outings and my preceptor had no choice but to continue the junior role... I did managed to cope with everything except that I finished my changes late since the doctors round ended only at about 11.30am... I knew my preceptor was busy too and therefore, I didn't really seek her help unless I was unsure with certain things and the need to clarify...

But came close to 2pm, I was called up by my ward NO to fill up a new copy of the Controlled Drugs (CD) checklist due to some error done by the previous, previous, previous (and the list goes on...) shift... Since the Sister spotted it today, I had to sign in my name there... And that point in time, I was updating my report and practically, my mind was running through all my unfinished changes... After signing in my name, quickly rushed off to finish off my report...

I was then again called by my NO to count the CD with the afternoon staff... And with a stressful mind, I was asked to rewrite the drug count on the checklist... Kept on writing the wrong thing, my NO got 'impatient' and I ended up wasting 3 pieces of paper... By then, I couldn't endure it any longer and my eyes started to fill up with tears... Tried my very best to hold it back but too bad, I couldn't hold it back anymore...

Okay lah... Many people came to know of it... My preceptor ended up running up to me asking me whether I was scolded by anyone... *Haha*... How can I not love my preceptor?

By the way,
Thank you Ana... For consoling me, giving me advices and treating me to a cup of drink (although she said 'lollipop' is better)... I love your positive attitude but I guess I handled it differently from you...

Thank you Jasmine... "Crying is good cuz it releases the stress in you... But it makes you ugly..."... It just made me feel better and yes, made me feel not 'pretty' too... *Hehe*...

And so... I've lost the battle to stress... *Grr*... And to those who thought that I will never breakdown at work, sorry guys, you've lost...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Stressful Days... ~ 9:48:00 pm

It's been a stressful day at work for the past 2 days... Been taking up 10 cases (inclusive of the isolation room) since yesterday afternoon... Yesterday was quite fine since my preceptor was around to help me... But today, I was totally on my own... My preceptor herself had to take the last part of the male cubicles and leaving me to take the front portion... Thankfully, today is a Sunday and therefore, not many changes were made... But I should be prepared for tomorrow... Tomorrow is a Monday and that is when those doctors will really go into details for their rounds... Let's hope it'll be a good day tomorrow yeah...

Anyway, I'm really lucky to get Ana as my preceptor... Really love her positive attitude... No matter what, she will always replace her stressfulness to singing or humming... And yes, she has never scolded me before... Not even once... But I do try to get feedback from her each time on my performance... So that it will keep track on how I'm doing...

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Finally I have watched 'The Maid'... The storyline and some parts of the show were quite lame actually... For example, the part where the maid stepped onto the pile of ashes and the wind started to blow into her hair with the ashes, reminded me of some shampoo ad... *Haha*... Yes it's true!! But the scary part was definitely when she was all alone at home... And the sound effects made it even worse... *Hehe*...

An okay show but I don't think it's worth my $9.50... But what to do? I'm not free to watch on other days...

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I've got a new 'darling'!! Finally after like so long... *Winks*... Definitely worth the money... And thanks to Candy for accompanying me to survey the prices with me before settling down to buy it...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ The Different Side of Me... ~ 8:39:00 pm

What I really, really, really wish that I can do now is laze around in bed, get rid of all my worries in my mind and to forget about work... It seems that I have not done such a thing in a long time... Each time I get home, I would be so drained out from the day's work and at night, the moment I lay my head on my pillow, I would almost immediately drift off to sleep... At times, my work schedule can be so bad that I hardly get to see my parents who are also working on shift...

Weekends are not spared either... For example, my entire family can be at home on a Sunday afternoon and me? I have to head to work for my afternoon shift... There goes one of the precious days where I can get to relax with my family...

My temper and behaviour... Ever since during my attachment days, each time I came home really tired, I would just refused to talk... I would just keep myself away from my family... And sometimes, I can just flair up for no apparent reason... Weird? Yes I know... But thankfully, I have kinda adjusted to my working life and the unbelievable schedule... Therefore, my behaviour have changed and my temper have mellowed down... Although my sis would still say that I'm very grumpy... *Hehe*...

My friends... I really, really, really miss them a lot... Fione, Mac, Evelyn, Flora, etc... When was the last time I met them and really had a fun day out together?? I can't remember... Everyone including me, are all busy with their working life... *Sigh*... Work really separates everyone...

Tough life... =(

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ STRESSFUL!!!! ~ 9:08:00 pm

STRESS!! PRESSURE!! *ARRGGHH*...

*Sigh*... Tough day I had today... The first thing I came for work, my ND nurse told me to take 9 cases today... I was like, "HUH??"... All along I've been taking 3 cases and suddenly, 9 cases were thrown in front of me... That's like 3 times more... But lucky for me, one of the SNs from the female side came over to help and guide me along... Help me to check the changes to be made and what to write on my report... *Phew*... And that really helped me A LOT more...

But I really can't stand my nurse clinician... The way she pressurised me to give her an answer almost made me breakdown... But thankfully, I managed to hold it back...

Followed by my IV medication return demonstration with my nurse educator... Wah!! Very stressful!! But two things, you must know how to calculate and have some basic drug knowledge =)... It will help you out...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Sunday?? Doesn't feel like one... ~ 8:10:00 pm

I know that today is a Sunday but it doesn't feel like a Sunday at all to me... Honestly, ever since I started work, I'm no longer bothered by weekends and public holidays, especially if I'm working on these days, cuz it doesn't make any difference to me and my working schedule... Well, there's nothing I can do about it since I myself chose this path of career...

Today was a tiring day at work especially since I was assigned to work on the female side... Again, I felt lost but of course not as lost as the first time since I very much knew the work routine... I was very familiar with my male patients but not my female ones since all along, I was assigned to the male side... The non-stop callbells, wanting to use the commodes, the hourly parameters, etc... So damn tiring... I now understood why Mankam is always so stressed working on the female side... So from now on, I shall not ask her why she is forever looking stressed... *Hehe*...

And oh... I think I will be on Night Duty (ND) soon... Apparently, during roll call today, we were told of an event to be held by NHG and they requested that newly-graduated nurses (that's us!!) to be released for this event... But according to my ward NO, she has already drafted out our working schedule and I was told that I would be on ND... In my heart, I was like, "*Gasp*... So FAST!?!?"... But thankfully, we'll still be on junior role during ND... Cuz if they were to throw all the 18 or 20 (inclusive of isolation room) cases to me, I would definitely curse and swear... *Haha*... No lah, just kidding!!

Anyway, 2 more days to my DO!! *Yippee!!*...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Safe Manual Handling... ~ 8:34:00 pm

I believe that my PC either is going bonkers or is on the verge of 'breaking' down... Apparently, when I inserted a CD filled with pictures into the CD drive, it appeared as some powerpoint file instead... Initially, I thought that my friend had given me the wrong CD... But a double check on my brother's PC proves otherwise... *Sigh*... I guess that my PC has just degenerated... Well, what can I say... My PC is already 3 years of age and electrical stuffs just don't usually last THAT long... Maybe it's time for me to get a laptop but too bad lah... I have no $$ unless anyone is willing to sponsor me... *Hehe*...

Anyway, I really enjoyed the Safe Manual Handling practical lessons we had just now earlier on... Got to play around with the hoist, slide sheets, padslide, and of course, the right technique of lifting and transferring patients out and onto the bed... It's just SO much FUN especially when it came to the hoist... We managed to get the feel of being lifted out of bed and hanging in mid-air... Quite fun eh... *Hehe*... Actually, I don't mind going through it again... *Hiak hiak*...

Anyway, our orientation is coming almost to an end with just our company induction left on our list... So from now on, we will permanently be in the ward... *Sigh*... No more fun, no more lectures... All is work, work, work... So SN Nadiah, be prepared to get 'drilled' by our ward NO... Good luck to me... *Heh*...

Ciao!!~

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Pics from Razaly's sister's wedding.... =) ~ 12:00:00 am

Haiyoh... What am I looking at??


*Sigh*... What's with my brows now??


Much better but the person at the back spoils it ALL!! *Grr*...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ So Much Neater Now... =D ~ 6:17:00 pm

My desktop used to look so cramped with the countless programmes that I have... Didn't know that it looks so much neater now... *Haha*...

And some consolation... I can say that most of the pictures were salvaged since I had stored some in CDs and online photo storage websites...

But of course... All the songs... G-O-N-E with the wind... *POOF*... Looks like my plans to buy an mp3 player will be shelved up in the meantime...

And my stupid CD writer is causing some problems again... *Grrr*...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Everything's GONE... ~ 12:12:00 pm

*Sigh*... Every single thing on my pc is gone... From the pictures to the mp3s to the important files to the ones that I cherish... No more...

If it's not meant to be yours, then it's really not meant to be... Doesn't only apply to things... It applies to people too...

*Sigh*... Time to start from stratch again...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Outings... Dislike... ~ 8:27:00 pm

Okay... I'm beginning to dislike outings... Outings here refer to sending of patients out of the ward for some procedure such as X-rays, CT scan, MRI, etc... Today alone, I've sent 3 patients for outings...

1st patient for an X-ray... Nothing much... Just that there were so much equipments to move and remove such as the Baxter pump and his feeding pump...

2nd patient for a CT head and X-ray... This one is a total headache... Patient was so confused that at the point where the CT head was about to be done, he just couldn't stop fidgeting... Ended up, we had to get the doctor done to the NNI to sedate him... And for the X-ray, he just refused to be lifted up... As though he was 'stucked' to the bed...

3rd patient to the National Skin Centre (NSC)... We had to take 2 patients down to NSC by trolley... Of course, we travelled down by the ambulance... The worse part was the waiting time... I was practically there with my patient from 2.50pm to 5.15pm... And yes, I had to push the trolley all on my own...
Anyway, the cheeky ambulance driver 'demanded' for my "I AM NEW" badge... Worse part, he used the loudspeaker from the ambulance saying, "This is your last warning... Please surrender your yellow badge... Or else..."... *Horrible*... And at the end, from the trip back to TTSH, he told me to 'write' my telephone number on the trolley which was to be returned to the Transport Office... Of which he was kidding... *Sigh*...

And so, the moral of the story is... Please cut down on my outings!! Well, outings is one way where you can escape from work but if it's so much to the extend of taking away my time, no way!!

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ My Day... ~ 9:21:00 pm

Well, here I am, blogging when I'm supposed to be working... *Haha*... Just kidding... Apparently, my ward NO decided to give all of us a 9-5 working time instead although I was initially slotted to work the PM shift... But since we had to go to NHG College for the final part of our foundation course, we were given the 9-5 working time... But I really thankful that our NO was willing to give us the 9-5 working time despite the lack of staffing in the ward... To be honest, we're really lacking in Staff Nurses... Cuz 2 nurses are on maternity leaves and another 2 went for advanced diploma... Despite the 3 new staffs (which includes me and another 2 of my fellow colleagues), we're deemed as ineffective Staff Nurses... Cuz there's still so many things that we should learn from stratch... And I'm quite convinced that we will be starting our Staff Nurse roles very soon...

And guess what? I enjoyed my final session at the NHG College... I guess that it's better to work in smaller groups instead... The concentration is just not there when we work in bigger groups...

Went to the GP near to my house today... Couldn't bear with it any longer... Been having a runny nose since Saturday and it's really a hindrance to my work... Had to wear a surgical mask earlier on at work and my nose just couldn't stop running while I had my mask on... *Super irritating*... Don't know how many times I changed my mask... Anyway, I was more impressed with the GP than the doctor at the walk-in clinic... At least the doctor at the GP advised me on what I should avoid... Well of course, I had to pay more... But for the sake of my patients and colleagues, I can't afford to delay any longer...

And oh... Just in case I'm not blogging tomorrow...

HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Still coughing... ~ 7:50:00 pm

*Shucks*... It's been almost a month but my cough has yet to recover... In fact, I think it's getting worse... So damn irritating especially when I'm working... And if my cough still remains the same by Wednesday, I will pay another visit to the GP... Can't afford going around and spreading the disease to everyone especially my patients...

*Sigh*... It's back to work again tomorrow... Guess that it's going to be another long day tomorrow... Will have to head to NUH in the morning for the final part of the foundation course and in the afternoon, I will have to rush back to TTSH for my PM shift... And the worse part, I'm on AM shift on National Day... *Arrgghh*... And yes, still no enjoyment for me cuz I will be having my IVM test on Wednesday which I've yet to study... Looks like I will be homebound on National Day to study for my IVM...

And oh... Please pay a visit to this blog... I don't understand why people just have to discriminate... These people just have such a narrow mind... Oh well, what goes around comes around... We'll just wait and see...

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How do you tell someone that you like him??

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Tomorrow's DO!! ~ 9:08:00 pm

Yay!! Tomorrow is finally my Day Off... *Yippee!*... Been waiting for so long for this day to come... Can't believe it... I've gone through 11 days without an off day and I'm still surviving (well, of course I will still be alive... *Hehe*)... The only thing that I can't endure is the tiredness... Totally had no mood to work today... Told my SSN about it and instead, she told me to look forward to my Day Off... Did as she told and yes, I went by through the rest of the shift with much ease...

And guess how long we took to do turning? Almost 1 hour... When you do it with the ward sister, that's how it will be...

Anyway, I have yet again become a victim of the hospital-acquired hazard... Was adjusting the drip stand of the reclining chair and the screw just couldn't be turned... In the end, I just let go of it and my left index finger got clipped to it... As a result, the tip of my left index finger is swollen and there's a blood clot... And so, I could only use the rest of the 4 fingers to do work...

And oh... It's a false alarm... My discman is not spoilt!! Just that the 'Hold' button was on so that's why I couldn't press the 'Play' button... Can't believe it... Took me a almost a week to realise it... *Dumb*

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ TTSH passed the JCI!! ~ 9:26:00 pm

Yippee!! TTSH has passed the Joint Commission International (JCI)... Congratulations!! Despite us, the newly grads, not getting involved with it, but all those housekeeping stuff that we did, it just paid off... Hurray!!

And oh... For once during the foundation course at NHG College, we decided to pay attention to one of the lectures... And the speaker, NUH's Nurse Educator, was giving us a lecture on the different cultures in Singapore... And he came out with this joke that since today was the first day of the Chinese Lunar Seventh Month, the first row of seats should be left empty... *Haha*...

And yeah, I saw Serene, my JI buddy, just now... Totally coincidental... Guess that we were just at the right place and time... *Hee*...

I so can't wait for Sunday to come... Finally, my long awaited DO (Day Off) is arriving!!

And here's a pic to share, which was taken on 3rd August at the NHG College... Enjoy!



written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ Charlie & The Chocolate Factory!! ~ 10:00:00 pm

Yay!! I've already watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (CATCF)!! Actually, it was just an impromtu decision made by Candy, Mankam, Florence and I... Suddenly Mankam just turned to me and told me that today is the 4th so it's the release of CATCF and asked whether I wanted to watch it today... Hence, we asked along Florence and Candy... Ended up watching at GV Boon Lay since we're at NUH and Florence's boyfriend's house is at Boon Lay...

Anyway, if you have read the book by Roald Dahl, it's very much the storyline that is written in the book... Although Willy Wonka, played by Johnny Depp, has a more darker side to his story, compared to the book... Yes, Willy Wonka is still the eccentric man in the factory but there's just an element of 'darkness' in this movie... Anyway, I give this movie 3 1/2 out of 5 stars...

In the meanwhile, we're still at NHG College @ NUH attending our foundation course... Just one word to describe it... BORING... Enough said...

And oh... I've done the most silly thing today... Sat at the bus-stop near to my house in the morning to get to Admiralty MRT Station... Anyway, when the bus came, I tried to reach out to my pocket for my EZ-Link which wasn't there... And guess what? I've sat there for a solid 15 minutes before realising that I did not have my EZ-Link with me... *Dumb*...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ I'm Tired..... ~ 8:54:00 pm

Okay... I am finally feeling the strain... It has been so dreadful having to wake up so early each morning... Well, this is the effect of having to work 7 days straight... And yet, I still have 4 more days to go until I finally get my day off... *Sigh*... What can I say... This is my working life...

Had an IV medication course today... And let me tell you, it is no easy feat... The pharmacist who gave the lecture, was definitely knowledgeable... She knew most of the IV drugs at her fingertips... Her only downside: She talks like a bullet train and her voice just seems to lull us to sleep...

And oh... From tomorrow till Friday, I will have to travel down to NHG College @ NUH for a foundation course... Can you imagine how far I have to travel from Yishun to Buona Vista? *Sigh*... And NUH is like so ulu... Well, it's just too bad... We have no choice since TTSH is going through the JCI now... Anyway, heard from my ward clerk and SSN that they did not drop by our ward... *Phew*... But who knows if they drop by tomorrow or the day after? *Shrugs*...

Anyway, thanks Eliza for the treat... *BURP!! Hehe*...

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
~ HAPPY NURSES DAY!!! ~ 8:32:00 pm

First and foremost...

HAPPY NURSES DAY to all nurses in Singapore... Finally, I'm celebrating Nurses Day as a full-time pledged staff nurse... The feeling is entirely different as compared to those days when we were just a student... And as we were having a session with the lady from SNA earlier in the day, a Nurses Day wish from the CEO of NHG & TTSH was heard over the sound system... It was kinda nice, come to think of it... At least we know that we're being appreciated... *Hehe*...

And today... Finally I have exchanged my name tag for the new Staff ID with my photograph on it... Actually, I would still prefer my name tag to the Staff ID... The picture on it was just too focused that my face looked really big... *Grrr*...

Next, went for my immunization jab... I had to take 2 jabs on my left arm... First jab was my Hepatitis B booster... Since my antibodies was only 50 (healthcare workers needed at least 100), I had to take a booster jab... Second jab was my varicella jab a.k.a chickenpox... Since I never had a previous infection before, I had to take the chickenpox jab... And both were given on my left arm... Anyway, the nurse at the clinic told me that I am not allowed to get pregnant within 3 months... And the two girls who accompanied me, Candy and Mankam, started giggling behind me... Simple answer lah... Not married + no boyfriend = no pregnancy... *Haha... Lame!*

written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi

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